Sunday, June 24, 2007

I've Been Thinking

Thinking, because that's one of the things I do when the funk sets in. Thinking about blogging and comments and email and all the people we contact in those types of formats. I've been thinking about it because even with blogging, and email and Instant Messenger, I still find myself feeling lonely and isolated, devoid of adult human contact. As much as I really appreciate these means of communication, it's just not the same as sitting across from another person and talking and laughing. Half the time when I type "lol" I'm not really laughing out loud, I'm laughing in my head. Even though I can hear it in my head it's still sort of a stifled response. Don't get me wrong, like I said, I'm thankful for email, Instant Messenger and the blogsphere because it does help somewhat. The problem is that I need to get out and do something besides grocery shopping and going to the local WalMart. (I really dislike that anyway, and speaking of which, I running low on a few things and need to go anyway - blah)

As Funks go, this one seems to be wrapping up because I feel a little better every day, so that's good at least. Oh, guess what? My main medication says, "May cause drowsiness, exercise caution while operating an automobile" I didn't notice that until 2 days ago and I've been on it since early April. Wouldn't it be nice if our doctors told us the side effects before they prescribe something like that to a person who has to drive everyday? No wonder that I'm struggling with just doing what's normal, dishes, cleaning,.... etc, my medication is out to get me! hahahaha (and no I didn't SAY, "hahahaha" out loud just then, either, maybe I snickered a bit) Anyway, hopefully I'll have less belly aching and more knitterly stuff to display soon. I just have to climb up this hill a little further before I reach the summit and get to see the view, both behind and in front.

One more thing. Now Blogger saves your drafts automatically! Isn't that nice? I thought so, since many a time my computer has crashed or died mid-blog and I've lost everything because I didn't save it. So that's one thing I'm grateful for. I'm also grateful for my children, because without them I probably wouldn't leave my bed. I'm grateful for a good therapist, of course working through some of this stuff can be funk inducing, but it'll all the worth it in the long run. I'm grateful for an understanding and supportive husband. This grateful list thing is something I'm supposed to do every day, but don't. =) It helps though and I should really do it more since it makes you look on the bright side and focus on what you have, which takes the focus OFF what you don't have. Would anyone else like to share 4 or 5 things you are grateful for? (you know, that human contact thing.... )


Kilroy_60 said...

Compliments on the lavender rose photograph. Quite a coincidence, I posted on of those recently myself.

I'm thinking starting to post photographs again would be fun. Thanks. 8-)

About the knitting, it's great. The blog is very good though with the narrative posts working in as well.

I've added you to the newest edition of A Hitchhiker's Guide To The Blogosphere.


Shannon said...

Keep climbing April :) If we were closer I would love to sit face to face and chat with you. You certainly arent the only person who feels isolated and unfulfilled by the endless availability of electronic communications but lack of physical contact. I'm with ya. Hang in, and keep writing, keep knitting, and keep trying.

AmyP said...

Even if it's something as simple as taking your kids to school or being out in the garden, it's something, right?
I'm going through similar things with my mum at the moment, so if you need pointers, just let me know. OK?

Rebekah said...

It definitely can help when in a funk to be around actual humans, but sometimes the funk makes it nearly unbearable to get to the place around humans. Just try and take it one day at a time. maybe you could visit some of the elderly ones or older ones in your area????

lobstah said...

I'm not depressed or anything, but I do tend to have a negative outlook on life and I've been trying to see the positives lately. One thing I thought of: even though my job drives me up a wall sometimes, I'm really grateful for the excellent work experience it's giving me.
Hang in there!

Isabelle aka Tricotine said...

I need to go groshies shopping too... :-)

Wanna go together? ;-)

Big {{{HUGGGSSS}}} from lonely me too...

Renee said...

I hear you. I thank the internet every day for helping me feel like an adult in the land of wee ones but I too miss the company of adults.

I'm grateful for a baby with sweet smelling skin, a little girls says funny things and makes me smile, a husband who likes to cook, books of all sorts and chocolate - there's always chocolate.