Thinking, because that's one of the things I do when the funk sets in. Thinking about blogging and comments and email and all the people we contact in those types of formats. I've been thinking about it because even with blogging, and email and Instant Messenger, I still find myself feeling lonely and isolated, devoid of adult human contact. As much as I really appreciate these means of communication, it's just not the same as sitting across from another person and talking and laughing. Half the time when I type "lol" I'm not really laughing out loud, I'm laughing in my head. Even though I can hear it in my head it's still sort of a stifled response. Don't get me wrong, like I said, I'm thankful for email, Instant Messenger and the blogsphere because it does help somewhat. The problem is that I need to get out and do something besides grocery shopping and going to the local WalMart. (I really dislike that anyway, and speaking of which, I running low on a few things and need to go anyway - blah)
As Funks go, this one seems to be wrapping up because I feel a little better every day, so that's good at least. Oh, guess what? My main medication says, "May cause drowsiness, exercise caution while operating an automobile" I didn't notice that until 2 days ago and I've been on it since early April. Wouldn't it be nice if our doctors told us the side effects before they prescribe something like that to a person who has to drive everyday? No wonder that I'm struggling with just doing what's normal, dishes, cleaning,.... etc, my medication is out to get me! hahahaha (and no I didn't SAY, "hahahaha" out loud just then, either, maybe I snickered a bit) Anyway, hopefully I'll have less belly aching and more knitterly stuff to display soon. I just have to climb up this hill a little further before I reach the summit and get to see the view, both behind and in front.
One more thing. Now Blogger saves your drafts automatically! Isn't that nice? I thought so, since many a time my computer has crashed or died mid-blog and I've lost everything because I didn't save it. So that's one thing I'm grateful for. I'm also grateful for my children, because without them I probably wouldn't leave my bed. I'm grateful for a good therapist, of course working through some of this stuff can be funk inducing, but it'll all the worth it in the long run. I'm grateful for an understanding and supportive husband. This grateful list thing is something I'm supposed to do every day, but don't. =) It helps though and I should really do it more since it makes you look on the bright side and focus on what you have, which takes the focus OFF what you don't have. Would anyone else like to share 4 or 5 things you are grateful for? (you know, that human contact thing.... )